Silent Emotions !!!

Why I become so cold like a stone in front of you,
Quite like the silence will never fall apart,

In this silence, my eyes meet yours,
Those small, bright, deep eyes of yours,
shine with such shrewdness like they want to hypnotize me,
But, I don't feel any hint of emotions flowing in my eyes,
I just blatantly see you,

With this sharp, killer, seductive smile of yours,
You smile at me,
And, I know at that very moment,
That you know that I am so helpless,
I don't ask you,
I don't resist you either, and,
We talk in silence without saying a word,

Then, you take a step forward,
And put your hand on my back,
You pull me closer to you,
My heart doesn't race a bit,
My breath remains normal,
I am still looking at you with my expression less gaze,
You smile once more,
And release me from your arms,
Then you pull me towards you with more stronger force,
You look into my eyes and ask why ?

I hesitate to answer,
I want you to feel the same struggle,
Baffle and bewilder on the misery,
Misery to solve the puzzle of your own thoughts,
To give them a working direction,
To wait and wait for it unless you have the answer,

I still dither, But,
I don't want you to keep in the same prison I am living in,
I free you from this misery and I say,
I have never known if I hate you more or I like you more,
What I know is
My hatred for you has never overwhelmed the fact that I like you,
I smile at you,
You finally release me from you arms,
Only to understand and love me more !!!

Who you are ?

You are no one to me,

Your existence doesn't matter to me,

You are visibly invisible in my life,

I don't even care who you are,

but, then, who you are ?

Why should i even bother to think of you,

Why should i even care to know you,

Why should i call or message you,

but, then, who the hell are you ?

I call you fucking bastard,

You call me chichori girl,
Deadly combination that should not exists,
lives right across the street,

You have arrived in my life from no where

Sucking me, fucking me every where,

You like nothing about me,

I hate hearing your cheap talks and eager lies,

I can't tolerate you for one moment in my life,

But, you have got this seductive killing smile,

I fight with you like anything,

I still always allows you to come in,

I despise you each season,

But, can not ignore these two reasons,

On this lonely planet, when i had no one,

You came and fastened your arms around me,
You hold my hand to drop me home safely,

When i was quite high in this unknown city,

No matter how i am, you always respond back,
That momentarily warmth has soften my heart, 

I couldn't stop myself to thank you for the first time,
I don't recognize you anymore in the frame of dim light,

It's no mirage that i have nothing but contempt for you,

I still want to ask you who the hell are you ? !!! :-)