Being a Girl A Blessing or A Curse ???

After reading the title, many of you might think ...What a weirdo!!!

I am sure each one of us would have thought this at least once in the life if being a girl a blessing or a curse ... !!! I myself have thought this multiple times in my life, my life hasn't been easy too.

I want to just say ... This independence day let's be free ... free not from our responsibilities, not from our families, not from our job's or whatever we like doing, but free in our thoughts ...

Let's give a girl an ineluctable freedom ... 
Freedom to Breath, to Smile, to Live ...
Freedom to study, 
Freedom to speak her mind,
Freedom to choose her partner,  
Freedom to roam around the world with dignity, without any fear of someone chasing her, 
Freedom to unveil, to glorify, to show the world her beauty, Freedom to take her own decisions, 
Freedom to think, think what she is, what she can be ...

Our life starts with a woman, if there is no woman, there is no man in the world too.
Let's rethink and start respecting a women for what she is.

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Necessity to educate our kids on Child Abuse and Molestation

I think, All of us keep hearing some or other bad news on young girls being raped/abused/molested with their age still being in the single digit. They have not even known or understood what has happened with them. These kids are in pain like eternity has fallen apart into darkness. The trauma these young kids suffer with, memories of which haunts them day and night, all the moments of their upcoming life, do you think you could save them from all this?

We are the society, we make the society, we all know that these children are innocent, they are not at fault at all, despite of knowing every thing, we do not accept them. We treat them badly, ignore them, exclude them from us and they never want to become one of us for their rest of the life.

It's easier to teach a kid by a kid because they imitate each other ...

Let's start a new day today and save our kids from each bit of Abuse/molestation. Let's stood by them and safeguard them each moment by educating them with these basics so that they would know when to say "NO". Let's become friends with them so that they would be able to share everything with us.

Tip - Change in repo rate directly affects EMI’s and Interest rates which influence the common man’s life in short term, Also affects the Inflation in economy. How ? Read below to know.

               

Effects of Repo rate on Inflation

When the repo rate is raised, banks are compelled to pay higher interest to the RBI which in turn prompts them to raise the interest rates on loans they offer to customers. The customers then are dissuaded in taking credit from banks, leading to a shortage of money in the economy and less liquidity. So, while on the one hand, inflation is under controlled as there is less money to spend, growth suffers as companies avoid taking loans at high rates, leading to a shortfall in production and expansion. For instance, if the availability of funds is scarce, and banks are not able to borrow at repo rate, they may have to increase the deposits rates upwards to attract depositors. Hence, any rate hike in repo rate increases the probability of higher deposit rates, which is good news for depositors.

How to invest in stock market by fundamental analysis using P/E ratio ?

I am thinking to build my investment portfolio, though diversified but one of the major component has to be equities, specially long term equities. With this thought, same question like many others out there, starts boggling into my mind and i am pushed to ask myself, is it the right time to get into the stock market ? Should i wait for some more time, get cornered and see how the market behaves or i can jump into the market straight away and start investing ?

To be honest, no one has a straightforward answer to this question, each one of us has a different perspective/analysis on how the market would behave. Here is what i and my brother found our during our discussion ...

Indian stock markets are touching a new high almost every other day now. Stocks are outperforming to their 52 weeks high. Many Brokers and investment firms like CLSA are claiming that NIFTY50 would reach 10k in 2018. 

I wonder what has changed in the fundamentals of the company or their sector for their outburst performance in the market. Is the company really growing at the same pace in correspondence to their stock market price? This may have happened that the company changed its working business model or got more number of contracts  and company's growth outpaced its competitors or sector wise reforms taken by the government helped the company rise. Industry sector growth can also be the result of global factors or the domestic market cue's.

If the Industry and its within companies are outperforming because they leveraged their fundamentals then why 100's of stocks declined after they declared their quarterly earnings in May 2017. Correction in these stocks was seen up to 10-12% in one single day. Stocks would not have such a free fall in their stock price if they are fundamentally strong.

We did some more analysis and checked for the P/E ratio of different sectors and specific stocks. 

P/E ratio of a company is simply the Market price / Earning per share (EPS). 

P/E of the Industry  = Sum of P/E ratio of all the companies in that industry / Number of companies in that industry.

Currently, this is the market sector-wise, breakdown -

By this chart, this can easily be figured out that how many times each sector is overpriced than its current valuation on 23rd June 2017. Consumer Non-Durables's industry is approx 51 times overpriced than its current valuation.

Individual stock P/E could be different than Industry P/E. P/E of 2 different stocks in the same industry can be used as one of the factor to evaluate where to invest. Lower the P/E, better the chances. For example, Dabur Inc P/E as of June 27th, 2017 is approx 40 and P/E of Emami is 70.79 where as the Industry P/E is 54.3.

Apart from P/E, there are several other factors that can be considered while evaluating a stock for investment, though I would not go in details for the same in this article. But, current valuation of the market is highly overpriced. So, before investing, do some analysis and invest carefully !!!

Which Category You Belong To ???

I don't know what I am looking for, what that shadow looks like ?

I know most of the people on earth might not know what they want. People spend their entire life earning for bread, building a roof on them and their family, and looking for all the fancy stuff. This is the motive of every person since they wake up and by the time they fall asleep. Even their sub conscious mind brings them the dreams of what they want. People who have money, want more money because their ambitions do not fall in the range of what they have. They work hard to get it so they can achieve what they are planning for, may be a bigger house, bigger car, vacations on the beach.

Do they stop here ? By the time they get all of this, they are stuck in the other tantrums, for e.g. their social status doesn't allow them to stop, they have to maintain it etc. They start comparing what they have with what they do not have and are never content. They are as dissatisfied and troubled as someone who doesn't has anything, who struggle every time to fill his and his family empty stomach.

This is an endless loop and someone who once gets into this has very least probability to get out of it. what are the chances, how much, what way they can relieve themselves. I do not have the answer, no one has, this is something everyone has to find themselves.

Sometime back, I got into a conversation with one of my colleague and he said that there are 3 kinds of people in this world.

First, who are selfless and are pure souls. They sacrifice every materialistic things they have. Even their time for themselves and their families. They work for the betterment of the other people, help them build a better life. Their life and happiness is meant for other's. they live and die for others.

Second set of people are like us, who live in this realistic world, work hard, are ambitious and earn money for the betterment of ourselves and our family. they are harmless.

Third set of people are those who are ill-ambitious, who can hurt others to move ahead in their life. These people do not walk the ladder of success build on the ridge by them but they use the path of other's failure to lead them on the way of success. They are mean and can use anyone for their profit.

So true he is. I know after reading the above 3 categories, you might be thinking which category you belong to. It's good that you are thinking, most of us crib about not having time to do things that we want. It becomes more of an excuse. I believe that if you are passionate about doing something, it will come back to you even after you do not want this anymore because this is your passion and you two are connected by untearable threads.

We have only one life, some of you may argue that we will be born again in the cycle and we will do things that we couldn't achieve in this life. I know only about this life, neither about the life before I was born nor about the life after I die.

I remember once I was sitting in the cafeteria with couple of my colleagues and one of them said they we always compare ourselves with the people who are more rich and successful, we never feel gratitude that we are doing better than many of us. She is absolutely right, we should think how we can differentiate our self from others not in terms of monetary status and feel gratitude towards what you have.

After seeing her sympathy towards the poor rickshaw drivers and the underprivileged kids, I simply said to her, it is easy to have this kind of conversation over the cup of tea sitting in a A/C room because you are comfortable in your zone, but have you ever contributed a little to make someone's life better in some way?

Think and realize which set of people you belong to out of these three ? Do you think the category you belong to is the right place for you or you can do better ? !!!

A broken heart or A fairytale ???

Love ... Most fascinated and most discussed topic on the earth ... Every one ... yes, it's everyone, not only human beings, but, every living creature on earth wants to be in love for once or for forever.

Most beautiful and the worst thing in the world would be to experience the love ever ... It works like a magic, inspire you in either direction, it can turn you in the most amazing personality or a monster.

I am often flabbergasted on the versatility of human emotional behavior to react on different situations when it comes to love and I am amazed with the fact that how many distinct shades of emotions a human can showcase.

Some people fall in love on the first sight and some people spent their entire life together trying to find love and they never get it,

Some people are lucky enough to find their soul mate and some people's soul longs and crave to feel the love that can make them complete,

Some people sacrifice everything they have for their love and some people just get it for free without putting any efforts.

Everyone has their own version of the fairy tale. For some, fairy tale only limits to one's dream and reality is harsh enough to make them believe and baffle on their destiny throughout their life. Some, live the Fairy tale as part of their every day's life and they smile, laugh and mesmerize on the beauty of love.

Love ... It is such a strong force which can transform you completely into a person who thinks positively, always witty, joyous and full of life and you walk on a path of success, nourishment and enrichment and if it turns out on the negative notes, everyone has observed, that wars have been fought for love, people kill each other for love, you walk on the path of hatred, envy, jealousy and one word - disaster.

Some people are strong enough to live their lives even when they lose the love of their life and some loose the hope to live without them. I often wonder, from where these people bring this courage, emotional stability and strength to move in their life and find a new enlighten way to make something better out of this beautiful life even when their fate has been so harsh with them where as Some capture themselves in the darkness of the worse, as they walk into this darkness, they suffocate, suffer, strangle and become as blind as the darkness. They are simply lost on the journey of love.

I ponder over this question for long if it's just the destiny that differentiate the dreams of people or is it something else? What is this force that drives us to do things beyond our imagination?

Why would someone's emotions reach to these extreme levels ? Why this discrimination exists in the feelings? Why we don't we have the enough guidance to conquest our own sentiments?

And my favorite question, why everyone doesn't get a chance to taste the divine fruit of love ?? Why this inequality ?

I can just hope that there comes a day when everyone has the support system that comes from a lover, someone who will always be there for you, no matter when you rise or fall !!!

Silent Emotions !!!

Why I become so cold like a stone in front of you,
Quite like the silence will never fall apart,

In this silence, my eyes meet yours,
Those small, bright, deep eyes of yours,
shine with such shrewdness like they want to hypnotize me,
But, I don't feel any hint of emotions flowing in my eyes,
I just blatantly see you,

With this sharp, killer, seductive smile of yours,
You smile at me,
And, I know at that very moment,
That you know that I am so helpless,
I don't ask you,
I don't resist you either, and,
We talk in silence without saying a word,

Then, you take a step forward,
And put your hand on my back,
You pull me closer to you,
My heart doesn't race a bit,
My breath remains normal,
I am still looking at you with my expression less gaze,
You smile once more,
And release me from your arms,
Then you pull me towards you with more stronger force,
You look into my eyes and ask why ?

I hesitate to answer,
I want you to feel the same struggle,
Baffle and bewilder on the misery,
Misery to solve the puzzle of your own thoughts,
To give them a working direction,
To wait and wait for it unless you have the answer,

I still dither, But,
I don't want you to keep in the same prison I am living in,
I free you from this misery and I say,
I have never known if I hate you more or I like you more,
What I know is
My hatred for you has never overwhelmed the fact that I like you,
I smile at you,
You finally release me from you arms,
Only to understand and love me more !!!

Who you are ?

You are no one to me,

Your existence doesn't matter to me,

You are visibly invisible in my life,

I don't even care who you are,

but, then, who you are ?

Why should i even bother to think of you,

Why should i even care to know you,

Why should i call or message you,

but, then, who the hell are you ?

I call you fucking bastard,

You call me chichori girl,
Deadly combination that should not exists,
lives right across the street,

You have arrived in my life from no where

Sucking me, fucking me every where,

You like nothing about me,

I hate hearing your cheap talks and eager lies,

I can't tolerate you for one moment in my life,

But, you have got this seductive killing smile,

I fight with you like anything,

I still always allows you to come in,

I despise you each season,

But, can not ignore these two reasons,

On this lonely planet, when i had no one,

You came and fastened your arms around me,
You hold my hand to drop me home safely,

When i was quite high in this unknown city,

No matter how i am, you always respond back,
That momentarily warmth has soften my heart, 

I couldn't stop myself to thank you for the first time,
I don't recognize you anymore in the frame of dim light,

It's no mirage that i have nothing but contempt for you,

I still want to ask you who the hell are you ? !!! :-)

I Exist With You !!!

You are my life,
You are my smile,
You are every breath that i take,
You are each step that i make,

You are in each and everything that surrounds me,
Even if you are not around, i feel you everywhere
I feel you inside me, like you are part of me, my body, my soul,
I don't exist without you,
I and you are always together, even when i am alone, and you are some where else,
I exist with you,
Your love is my identity, i am no one but you,
I am mere reflection of you, and you are of mine,
I and you are two bodies with one soul, inseparable, 

I smile, i am fascinated,
I am attracted to you by the string of love that you pull,
The harmony, the positive attitude that you bring along with you,
My soul is soaked in the color of yours

No matter, how much i try to stay away from you,
I can't, you are like an addiction to me,
Few hours away from you looks like a decade to me,
You are in front of me just few inches apart,
But the distance looks like miles,
I want to hug you, i want to kiss you,
But i can't, people are staring at us,
The feelings, the frequency of love,
Our heart is emitting is irresistible,
I smile, I laugh, I shy, I shine when i am with you,
I still say, i am in love with you !!!

One Smile Says It All !!!

My recent visit to a temple in my home town ... !!!
You all must be thinking that i am very religious person and what so special about this temple? 

Let me be honest here ... my reasons to visit this particular temple are not limited to pray, this temple undoubtedly gives me eternal solace to my soul and my mind that i could feel a connection with not only the deity but the little kids who come here every Tuesday to collect the prasad from the visitors for their family members.

Carrying the most innocent smile on their faces, these kids take my heart away. They don't have any luxurious facilities to live, some of their parents might even be struggling to survive. These pure, sinless souls, unwary by any corruption on earth looks radiant, no lesser than the deity itself.

(Sorry for not so good pic)

After my conversation with the deity, :-) i usually sit on the stairs outside from where i can see all these kids, and some times i sit with them. When i ask which class you are studying in, some of them shy and don't even answer, then their friends would answer on their behalf. 

Yesterday it was quite amusing when i sat in middle of these kids and the visitors when they stopped by me in the row, took few seconds to come out of the dilemma if they should give me prasad or skip by. They would be thinking this girl doesn't look underprivileged in a branded Jeans, T-shirt and that too with a laptop bag and a mobile in her hand. When they decide and extend their hand to give me prasad, i receive it with all the grace and with a smile :-)

I had taken my friend with me to this temple yesterday and i was coming up with some or other idea to make these kids smile more. I am just keeping my attitude positive and i hope things would fall in place.

Since We Last Met ... !!!

Many years have passed since we last met
But, It seems,
I am still standing outside that iron gate
where you left me alone
Never to turn back and look at me
I walk alone in these lifeless roads
Waiting for you to come back and hold me

My eyes want to have one glimpse of yours
To repaint your image in my eyes
To check you out how do you look like now
To remind me once more that you are real,
To hold you and ask you,
When you know, i fear darkness,
I fear this loneliness,
I fear a moment without you
then, why you left me alone,

I am waiting for you from years now,

But, you, you don't come back.

My eyes are immobile on these roads,
as if turned to stone now,
Watching patiently every figure
To find that it's not you,

Yet, i find a speck of hope in my eyes,
This hope rises to its peak and die every day, and,
Then it is reborn with the same expectation,
To see you once more,
My eyes brighten with the existing image of yours, and,
I hope to meet you again !!!

Speechless !!!

Jaan, I want to say something to you,
I know exactly what i want to say,
I know what i am feeling right now,
I have known these feeling for long time, But,
I could never find the right words to express my feelings,

Feelings that I and you share together,
Feelings of love & care, affection & obsession, possessiveness & freedom,
Feelings that make our relation stronger than ever,

I know what you want to ask, why ?
Why i need the words now,
When feelings says it all.

Feelings which have always been here,
In each and every action of mine,
But, could never reach my lips,
Though you keep telling me the same effortlessly,
Countless number of times a day,
I could never say it,
Words always freeze in my mouth, and,
I just hear a blow of air coming from my mouth,
Bewildering on my own behavior,
I am always in search of right words,
Words that can touch the depth of my feelings for you,

How many times, I just say 'Jaan', and,
I start looking at your face,
Without making a moment of delay,
You simply acknowledge me with 'haan jaan',
Like you understand my struggle to say this,
Your eyes showing enormous love for me,
You empathizing me on my inability to say this,
You smile and distract me with my thoughts,

Today with all my efforts, i want to say,
Jaan, I love you, in all the way i can love you.
Each moment of my life is meant to love you,
I don't know anything now but to love you,
Jaan, if you deep dive in my heart,
you will find only you.
Since the moment i met you and till my last breath,
I love you and i will love you.

You are mine ... !!!

O my beloved, You are my world to me,
You mean everything to me,

You fill my heart with love and happiness,
You have given my soul solace and completeness,

You enlighten me with your divine energy,
You hold my hand and walk me to the path to humanity,

I dream more and more with you, and,
Each one of my dream is equally important to you,

You bring all my dreams to existence,
You converge my efforts to my destinations,

You call me with different names,
Each name highlights my personality and attributes,

You stand by me every time i seek for you,
You caresses me like a child, a lover and wife of you,

You keep all your promises, no matter what happens,
I am your topmost priority and you have gained my respect,

You are the one i am getting older with,
You are my life and you are the one i want to die with !!!

I met an angel !!!

I am in love with you,
I confidently, proudly say this,
I smile every time, i say this,
I say this hundreds of times in a day,
Every time with the same passion and same feelings,
Even if i don't say, i still love you,

I want to thank you, that,
You introduced me to the world of love,
Otherwise, i would have never experienced,
this heavenly irresistible beauty of true love,

I was living in an illusion for years, until, 
I met you on that breathtaking starry night,
You came closer to me, and,
Looked into my eyes like never before,
I could feel your breath on mine,
You came a little bit closer and,
Took my hand into yours,
You gently caressed my hand with yours,

I was completely lost in you,
Hypnotized by your divine appearance,
You were still holding my hand, and,
I was looking at you without a blink,
Your face was glowing with an exception,
You looked like an angel in this starry night,

Then, You pulled me towards you,
To whisper something into my ears,
You pointed me in a direction,
and asked me to walk with you,
To discover the new definition of love,
To discover that love is unconditional,
It is beyond the worldly walls of wisdom,
I have been in love with you since that night,
I am still in love with you !!!

Who Am I ?

You have taken my soul with you,
leaving nothing behind in me,
leaving me colorless, with no beauty,
leaving me dumbfounded, clueless,

Yes, am alive,
Yes, am breathing,
Yes, I walk and i talk,
Yes, i do all what i am expected to do,

But, Something has changed in me,
I am not the same person i used to be,
I am different,
I was someone who would say,
I am the way i am, and,
I will not change myself for anyone,
Then, who am i ?
I do not recognize me any more,

I was some body else,
She used to smile, always,
She would burst into laughter on small things,
She would imagine silly things and smile on them,
She loved to build up stories on any topic in the world,
She loved to write,
She loved to dress up,
She was passionate about whatever she does,
She was ambitious and had the willpower to fulfill them,
Then, who am i ?

You not only took my soul from me,
You have taken my heart,
You have taken everything, I had,
My dreams, my passions, my ambitions,
I am no more me,
I am image of someone else !!!

I see you in my eyes ...

I am in love with you,
I say this and I smile,
I meet my own eyes in the mirror, I shy,
I shy away from your image in my eyes,
I hide my face in my hands, as if you are looking at me,

I can feel my heart beats running faster now, 
I can feel my breath getting heavier,
I can feel those cold shivers in my body,
I can feel your arms around my shoulders,

I close my eyes and i still see you
I see you in my dreams,
I see you everywhere, in every corner of my heart,
I feel you everywhere, in this air,
I feel you within me, taking me away from myself

I want to stop you,
I want to run away from you, 
I resent, I suffer, I repel,
I burn in agony of your imaginary existence,
I feel awkward in my own silence,

I promised not to say this again, But,
I want to tell you some day, that,
I am still in love with you,
I have always been in love with you,

I look back in the mirror, I smile,
I still see you in my eyes !!!

Uljhi Hui Ye Meri Zindagi !!!

Tooti bikhari kuch unkahi, Uljhi hui Apne hi dhago me,

Kat ti jaa rahi hai meri zindagi !!!

Resham jaisi malmali lagti kabhi,
Kabhi khusk khayalo ki tarah ubharati,

Mere hi payal ke ghungroo ke jaisi,
Kabhi tadapti kabhi chanakti meri zindagi !!!

Kabhi to bekauf bin kisi baat hans deti hai,
Duniya ka darr ise satata kabhi,
Kasmkash ke dariya me gote lagati,
Bhawar me fasi, doobti kabhi ubharti meri zindagi !!!

Tooti bikhari kuch unkahi, Uljhi hui Apne hi dhago me,
Dekha to kuch gaanthe pad gayi hai,
Sochati hun kholne ki koshish karun,
Pur dhaage nazuk bahut hain, Kholna hai mujhe inhe dhyaan se,
Phir bhi kuch Dhaage toot Gaye Aur Kuch choot Gaye,
ab wo tute udhade dhaage tadap rahe hain,
Mujhe bula rahe hain,
Thoda Paas jaakar dekha Maine, tab samajh aaya,
Ye mere hi dil ke kuch tukde pade hain,
Kuch tute hue rishtey Aur kuch armaan pade hain !!!

Armaano se saji doli lagti kabhi,
Kabhi band pinjare me kaid chatpatati,
Khule aasmaan me baadlo ke beech,
Kabhi jhilmilati dhoop aur kabhi thandi chaon hai meri zindagi !!!

Pankh lagakar udti kabhi,
Kabhi Ek kadam badane se bhi katraati,
Tere mere is benaam rishtey ki tarah,
Kabhi sajti sawarti Aur kabhi bikharti meri zindagi !!!

Love Never Dies !!!

I am in love with you today,

Though I was in love with you yesterday also,
And, Tomorrow, I might not be here to love you.

I am using this opportunity today to express my feelings for you,
A journey of my passion and gratitude for you.

I want to say,
I have been in love with you, from the moment I saw you,
I loved you madly, desperately, deeply, passionately, Every possible way I could love you,
If you were not around me, I always looked for you,
Each of my heart beat reminds me that it's only you,
You said, move on, I still love you,
You said, I am crazy, I still care for you,
You are within me and I could never separate you.

If I die tomorrow,

Come and hold me tight in your arms,
Give me a kiss on my forehead,
And, say, 
If I get one more life, If it exists as saint say,
Then you would be mine,
You would love me with the same passion i loved you,
You would never keep me waiting,
You would never let me go,
You would realize all my dreams,
You would give me love, care and respect that I missed in this life from you.
You would become my world for me.

If I die tomorrow,

Include me in one of your poem,
Dedicate it to me,
And make me immortal,
Then,
I will be within you and you will be within me, for forever.

A sparrow came to meet me today

A sparrow came to meet me today in my room !!!

I woke up early morning today unlike other Saturdays when i sleep till late. Saturday is only day in the entire week with no alarms ON and i enjoy watching dreams. I like to sleep till the time my body doesn't start aching.

My parents were fast asleep at that time so i freshen up and started reading novel. All of a sudden, i noticed, a sparrow has entered my room. She probably entered into the room from the small window above the front door of my room. She was wandering from tube light to CFL to bulb holders to FAN, almost every place in my room looking for an exit but unfortunately, she couldn't find it. I was enjoying the company of the sparrow as no one else was awake in my home. I wanted to act selfish so that i don't loose her. After watching her for a while, i decided to help the sparrow and opened up both the front doors of my room but it was still so dark for her to identify the way clearly.

she was meticulously trying to exit this big cage which she is not experienced to. She likes to fly freely unlike human who think at every step. To help her, i opened up the back door of my room which i hardly use. As soon as i reached the door, beautiful golden sun rays filled my room and me with energy, excitement and happiness. I felt peace in my heart like never before. I felt like i hadn't done in the recent times. It was an startling and astonishing experience for me.

Sparrow followed the sun rays and exit from the back door. She was my company, my friend and angel for the time she was with me. Sometimes, uninvited magical moments becomes unforgettable memory. Then, it becomes visible that some hidden, invisible mythical power holds me each moment of my life.

It's a beautiful day ...

Everyday is not same, not your feelings. Everyone has different thought process and encounters different emotional behavior in various circumstances. This story is about a moment in a girl's life when she doesn't know what to do with her life.

Things haven't been so good so far in my life.

Initially I thought that life is throwing challenges on my way. I accepted them and played along. Whenever I feel that life is trying to turn me down, I see Sun rise in the morning from the window of my room. Its calmness (you can keep watching it for long which is quite impossible to do at any other point of time of the day), its colorful surroundings, its fascinating mystery in the universe and its importance in everyone's life fills me with the positive energy.

I smile with this thought popping in my mind that this beautiful morning will give me sufficient courage to fight with any problem, today I am sure I will find a solution and my problems will end for ever. Although this never happens, yet I smile every morning with the arrival of same thought again.

I know doing this is tough and unrealistic. When my problems remains unsolved during the day, my pain starts increasing with the rising temperature of afternoon. My power and my energy burns like Sun.

I feel enormous pain in my whole body which becomes irresistible for me as the day progresses towards its end and this heated sun looses its brightness into complete darkness. My strength gives up with the thought that if the sun can loose who am I ? A simple girl, who has ever lived in her dream world and could never see life beyond her self-obsessed vision. Now, when its time to face the world, this society and people whom I never cared in my entire life, suddenly surrounds me with thousands of questions which I find myself unable to answer.

Sun dissolves completely into dark and I broke down with the fact that I am the cause for every problem that I am stuck into today. I want to hide myself somewhere in this dark so that no one would see me and I will not have to face anyone. In this comprehensive and hollow fear of mine, I think of every option which can trash my life and protect me from everything and everyone i am supposed to belong.

I simply do not find the courage to see beyond this depressing darkness and want to dissolve into it. but still to my surprise, there is something which never let my fear take any drastic step about my life. I try again but I am stopped every time. Something suppresses my fear and force me to walk in this endless road of life again. I could never understand this. I want to find it out. It could be the expectation of my family from me. It could be my love for my life because this is rarest thing on earth.

Every night I fight with all these thoughts and sleep. When I get up, I see this beautiful sun again and I smile. I smile with this thought that if sun can fight entire evening and night with darkness to lighten up the world in the next morning again, why can't I fight with my fear and overcome with my problems. I smile and move on.